Wandering thoughts
Heart-fulfilling Lads
Nakakatuwang makita ang mga reaction ng mga tao pag kagising nila sa gitna ng gabi o kapag naalipungatan sila. Yung mga batang, humihingi ng dede sa kalagitnaan ng gabi, yung mahinang tawag ng bata sa kanyang mga magulang para hingin yung gusto nya, na agad naming pinakikinggan ng magulang na iyon. Tapos mas nakakagaan pa ng puso, yung tatay na agad na nagigising sa mahinang boses ng anak nya. Hindi ko baa lam, pero bakit parang mas nakakabighani ng puso yung tatay na nag-aaruga sa anak nya. Is it really a big deal if the father’s doing the house chores? Tulad na lang nung sinabi ni Vilma Santos sa Anak, bakit pag lalaki ang nag-aalaga sa anak mas pinapansin, pero bakit kapag ang babae ginagawa na ang lahat na kanyang magagawa mapagbigyan lang ang anak eh kapag konting nagkamali, pupunahin kagad ng ibang tao, na ang tatay na nabanggit ay mabuting ama, at ang nanay na halos mamatay na ay masamang ina? Hindi ko rin alam eh, pero siguro tama talaga ang sinabi sakin ng aking mama, na iba ang impact ng ulirang lalaki, mapa-school man, o sa isang singing contest, iba talaga ang dating ng mga lalaki.
Annoying People. :|
Nakakainis yung mga taong sinasabihan ka ng sinabihan na maging malinis, eh samantalang sila dir in naman malinis, hindi naman sa sinisilip yung taong yun, it’s just that, HOW DARE THEM!? Bakit nila sinasabi na maging malinis ka eh ni di nga sila makapag-set ng example. Sana man lang tignan muna nila yung sarili nila bago nila tignan yung iba. Yun bang, “Linisin mo muna yung mata mo, bago mo punahin yung muta ng kapatid mo.” Mas maganda sana kung habang sinasabi nila yung mga bagay na “alam” nilang makakapagdulot ng mabuti sa kapwa nila eh, maisip muna nila na makakapagpabuti din sa kanila yun at mas lalo mong paniniwalaan at susundin ang mga sinasabi nila sayo, diba?
This! Oh gosh! I’m craving for thissssss.
Camera ♥
I remember pala! I’ve thought of a hobby that involves camera. Whenever I’m going out and saw a signage or name which is a name too of someone I know, I’m going to capture the photo and tag it to him/her. Hahaha!
Achoo!
Achoo! Aching! Whatever you like…
My mother just told us a random fact about me when I was young (All By Myself! LOL!). It began because of a random neighbor sneezing too loud that it was heard inside our house (Wew!). My mother said during my childhood, I was sneezing 7 times consecutively (That’s a shame! LOL! But tell me, it’s comforting, ayt?).
But now, it’s either 2 or 3. Not as many as when I was young. That’s all thank you! :)
Giving up >.<
I’m giving up! It’s already been my toll to give up. I can’t take it. I’m always left hanging. Boys are jerks. Don’t wanna believe them again. I mean it. I mean it ‘til I found the ONLY EXCEPTION. :’( :’)
That feeling when you’re left out? :’(
I feel so much in pain. I can’t bear it. Feels like I’ve lost another person in my life. The bonds between me and my family are getting looser now. Feels like we’re just living in the same roof but don’t practice the affection a family should have. I’ve already lost my father and now? I’m losing my mother, emotionally. We don’t talk much. And I feel like she wants to be with her friends more than us, her family. Tears are falling down from my eyes, showing my weakness. I just go to toilet to hide what I truly feels. I don’t want them to see me, being pathetic. Yeah! I’m pathetic, here <3. Sometimes, I just want to give up and surrender. Why? Why does this happen? Can’t I be happy all the time na lang? I, now, am seeking a caress I’m longing for. Caress of a parent. Caress of someone I know who cares. Caress that will ease the pain inside. I’ve thought of an idea that I will not let my child to feel the way I feel. I will give them a home, not just a house which has door, foundation, walls. But a home of warmth and embrace where there will be a time that we’ll sit near the hearth and ask each other of how do things go, of their crushes and prospects. I will never let them be left out of the crowd. I will make them feel that I’m a good mother and will always be.
